Is this the meaning?

I am proud to announce that the Kappa Class of Tau Kappa Omega crossed into the Brotherhood and I am extremely proud of them!(I feel so corny placing an exclamation point). I have had my doubts with you guys during the whole semester probably because I thought you guys should have been how Iota’s were, because that’s the image I have of how it should have been; but I’ve come to understand that is the flavor you bring into this entity that all of the brothers share. All eight…err I mean seven of you make me feel pretty damn old even though I’ve been in the Fraternity for only a year and I am only almost 20….eek! It’s just the fact that I have been there to back you guys up when you guys fuck up and there to fuck you up when you mess up; and I’m a firm believer in tough love ;). When I saw you guys land it was incredibly amazing that it’s here already and “Shit! Iota’s no longer have the spot light!” Also if you readers don’t know, my little is Luke, I’m ecstatic when I saw you land on your feet Bro.

I’ve been pretty bugged. It’s not majorly due to academics, family or the common relationship dilemma others post about. I really don’t know what it is about but I find myself getting easily agitated and I found myself the other day, holding back extremely hard to sock someone in the face (who knew if I had the right reasons to). I really don’t know what’s up, but don’t push my buttons or else…

I found myself the other day singing to Backstreet Boys going to BBW’s having a blast with mah Bro’s ya know? It was an amazing time because there was a Kappa in the car and all of us finally showed him one of the ways brotherhood is built…and yes it is jamming to BSB. Then the question came to mind…Am I your fire…

I spent 5 mins deciding if i should start this blog off like how everyone else does when they haven't blogged in a long time....lol w/e

So last night was the Phi Delta Alpha's Halloween party and I went. I am thrilled that the our Kappa "kittens" won that contest, it brought back a lot of memories when Iota's were smurfs...Especially on the way there and Ti's car got a flat and it was so cold outside our nipples could literally cut glass. I think it's pretty funny seeing a couple of smurfs changing a tire, do you not? LOL...I really doubted how the quality of the Kappa's costume was going to be and they proved me wrong by preparing an amazing appearance when some of them walked into the House...(the hair could have been greener).

I initially wanted to complain in this blog but when i try to think of how to start it off i cant seem to do it and more so...what's the point? It is not like i don't have anyone to talk to, i guess it is just the moment of things where i want to get a few things off my chest and i wanted to make this the solution..Talking to a brother last night, i realized that the shit im going through doesn't come into comparison so complaining is a waste of breath(in this case, finger energy i guess).

I just don't like sleeping mad.


pointless blog, but i kild time, now to the movies w/ siblings!!

Gray Skies, and White Lies...

I did not know this was going to be emotional...

Scribble

If I don't know, than I can't care.

"Do i need to Spell it out for you?"

-"..Uh i think i do cause im a little too much for you. Sorry, gotta keep it real."

So its 3am and I am heating left overs from Olive Garden...Chicken Parmigiana i believe? Yeah..its going to be delicious...I don't know why but Italian food is always better when i eat it later for me rather than at the restaurant. Maybe because the sauce and the cheese gets thicker when it cools and when you reheat it the flavor and texture becomes more apparent? Iono that'd be my guess.

So i took a break from writing in here and had some of the food...and my stomach is starting to hurt...maybe somethings wrong w/ the food? Oh well...the portion i have left could feed an entire village in 3rd world countries... who am i to complain?


"A man will cry in front of those he loves because he knows they will not use his tears against him."

Never knew i could hert like Dis. >.<

Today was one of the best workouts i've had with Andy. He's a good spotter, and that means a lot. And i know a workout is good when it is hard for me to take my shirt off...OOooohh YEeaah. I need to pick up though...im currently at 18%, and i have about a week before i have the opportunity to hit the beach and get rid of these hideous tan lines!

* Remember when my chest hurt a lot routinely during the day? So one day i went w/ my little brother to the doctor cause he had a minor problem that required a doctor(sorry i dont want to be arrested for sharing sensitive info). I asked him about my chest pains and he used his super ears to listen to me chest and he told me everything sounds normal. So im like, "Phew! coool..." Then he told me it could either be that im sleeping wrong or high stress...and he also told me that it's not rare for someone my age to have a heart attack. Well...."SHIT!, i didnt know my heart was that weak," was my reaction. (Doctors are full of it sometimes, but who knows?) As far as i know, my heart is still strong you bitches!

As of now i am stoked for the premiere of "The Dark Knight"!! Tammy and I gathered bunches of buddies together and we're all going to watch it of course. I plan on waiting for it around 10pee.em thurs. This shits going to be off Da hook! I've never been so excited....Bahaha.



What?
Just you..

Truely..Madly..Deeply..

"How's Life Binh?"

...Well, iono i get so lonely sometimes and I don't have anybody to turn to that...*sigh...nights are so long just laying in bed thinking/pondering/wondering...my days are a blur and i havnt accomplished anything...sigh..im so........DEPRESSED!?

LOL fuck that! but foreal...

I'm living my life "Truely, Madly, and oh So Deeply.", and i'm pretty sure thats how i lived most of my life. I don't have regrets at all, I did what i did and shit happens, it's just the nature of things. I've realized Shit happens to hurt us, teach us, and test us. Knowing this, those people out there that blog about problems...you obviously realized you got a problem...so let it hurt you, teach you and test you. so you can move on...It's just that simple =). Life's always good.

"That's easier said than done Binh, but you didn't explain how you are living your life "Truely, Madly, Deeply."

I live it Truely because I what I am and could give a shit to what other's think. I'm not going to lie to myself and try to convince myself my heart is there 100% because its what i want either. I'll let my heart decide and my knowledge guide me. I live Madly because I know what i want, and im not afraid to go for it. Deeply..? Because I am not afraid to risk my heart...im so much deeper than a puddle of mud...

I hope your not living life just to live it. Live to learn and find what your looking for.

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" I don't know what im looking for, but i know you got it."

Appreciate!

It ticks me off when i see parents come in with their kids throwing a fit because they want a piece of candy that is only under $1. and they "cant" afford it because they won't have enough for a pack of cigz...Sometimes i even give them the candy when my parents aren't looking, you'd be surprised how much thrill a kid can get w/ just a candy bar....poor kids...

SUMMER
this summer has been one of my most productive by FAR, and i love it. Im not going to elaborate how much i love it or why i love it because i don't need to convince myself any further, nor do i need to convince the PUBLIC.

Inflection.

I believe in the Principles, therefore they will believe in me.

Fever.

I am currently watching a korean drama I borrowed from T, called "Save The Last Dance For Me." So far no one important dies, but it does live up to its' reputation of being Korean because someone loses their memory...i dont know just watch it, you'll be pleased =). Besides watching drama's i've also been popping to Korean music, and im a hypocrite for doing so...Besides my Korean Fever, I've been reading a lot on my on time, more than i usually do. Currently reading a book that is poetically confusing...but i enjoy reading it because it is so hard to comprehend that when i do decipher its' meaning i feel so rewarded...*exhales.

"Easy come easy go"...

Ouch.

So lately i've been getting these sharp pains in chest every once in awhile at least 3x's a day. It makes me cringe and sends a partial chill down my neck. I dont know...?

For real

If there was anybody waiting to read my blog, I sincerely apologize for my procrastination upon this blog. I have always hesitated to publicize my thoughts online in words because I have the tendency to go off on a tangent and the post turns out to be too long and I re-read it and delete it because I sound like an idiot. I am self-conscious when I post blogs up for others to read because I am not a great writer at all and absolutely not a wordsmith of any kind and this thought lingers even right now when I write this. BUT, I have reinforced the mindset that these blogs are for the self, and not to serve as an intention to impress others. I hope to be actively blogging my thoughts, feelings, views, and my absolute self as frequently as time will permit me to. Enjoy =).

Sure..

Well i now have a Blog *shrug*

I will compose later...