Scribble

If I don't know, than I can't care.

"Do i need to Spell it out for you?"

-"..Uh i think i do cause im a little too much for you. Sorry, gotta keep it real."

So its 3am and I am heating left overs from Olive Garden...Chicken Parmigiana i believe? Yeah..its going to be delicious...I don't know why but Italian food is always better when i eat it later for me rather than at the restaurant. Maybe because the sauce and the cheese gets thicker when it cools and when you reheat it the flavor and texture becomes more apparent? Iono that'd be my guess.

So i took a break from writing in here and had some of the food...and my stomach is starting to hurt...maybe somethings wrong w/ the food? Oh well...the portion i have left could feed an entire village in 3rd world countries... who am i to complain?


"A man will cry in front of those he loves because he knows they will not use his tears against him."

Never knew i could hert like Dis. >.<

Today was one of the best workouts i've had with Andy. He's a good spotter, and that means a lot. And i know a workout is good when it is hard for me to take my shirt off...OOooohh YEeaah. I need to pick up though...im currently at 18%, and i have about a week before i have the opportunity to hit the beach and get rid of these hideous tan lines!

* Remember when my chest hurt a lot routinely during the day? So one day i went w/ my little brother to the doctor cause he had a minor problem that required a doctor(sorry i dont want to be arrested for sharing sensitive info). I asked him about my chest pains and he used his super ears to listen to me chest and he told me everything sounds normal. So im like, "Phew! coool..." Then he told me it could either be that im sleeping wrong or high stress...and he also told me that it's not rare for someone my age to have a heart attack. Well...."SHIT!, i didnt know my heart was that weak," was my reaction. (Doctors are full of it sometimes, but who knows?) As far as i know, my heart is still strong you bitches!

As of now i am stoked for the premiere of "The Dark Knight"!! Tammy and I gathered bunches of buddies together and we're all going to watch it of course. I plan on waiting for it around 10pee.em thurs. This shits going to be off Da hook! I've never been so excited....Bahaha.



What?
Just you..

Truely..Madly..Deeply..

"How's Life Binh?"

...Well, iono i get so lonely sometimes and I don't have anybody to turn to that...*sigh...nights are so long just laying in bed thinking/pondering/wondering...my days are a blur and i havnt accomplished anything...sigh..im so........DEPRESSED!?

LOL fuck that! but foreal...

I'm living my life "Truely, Madly, and oh So Deeply.", and i'm pretty sure thats how i lived most of my life. I don't have regrets at all, I did what i did and shit happens, it's just the nature of things. I've realized Shit happens to hurt us, teach us, and test us. Knowing this, those people out there that blog about problems...you obviously realized you got a problem...so let it hurt you, teach you and test you. so you can move on...It's just that simple =). Life's always good.

"That's easier said than done Binh, but you didn't explain how you are living your life "Truely, Madly, Deeply."

I live it Truely because I what I am and could give a shit to what other's think. I'm not going to lie to myself and try to convince myself my heart is there 100% because its what i want either. I'll let my heart decide and my knowledge guide me. I live Madly because I know what i want, and im not afraid to go for it. Deeply..? Because I am not afraid to risk my heart...im so much deeper than a puddle of mud...

I hope your not living life just to live it. Live to learn and find what your looking for.

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" I don't know what im looking for, but i know you got it."