i have about an hour to burn because i forced myself to do laundry by washing my sheets and blanket and figured why not blogg.

So been home most of the time for the past snowdays, and even got a work snowday too! That made me smile. To sum my snowdays up, its been lotsa singing on that game and i believe that i am decently good at that game. Also grilled yummy steaks and brats! Yup, that's how i do it.

I was anticipating another snowday for work but nope. I need to work anyways, im starting to fall under that "broke as a joke" category. I thought that it was going to be dead all the way through...but nope there was a crazy 3 hour bump that i didnt expect and ran out of rice for like...less than 5 mins, and this time i got lucky because no one was really there to bitch at me. On the other hand i rolled about 10 rolls today and fished for compliments each time i finished by...."hey, does this look okay?"..even though i know im bomb already, i asked anyways. I really need to memorize the menu my goal is to do it by the next Monday. Taking out heavy trash is not fun...

Working with these White people is interesting because it seems like they like to socially drink and smoke weed. They have the same conversation every time the shifts begins..."Man i totally tripped out last night" or "I can't believe she/he did that?!"

..Im tired and my laundry isnt finished yet...sad =(



I need to find my passion.

Why do all good things come to an end?

Work- I’ve been working at In The Raw now for a good 3 months now and I am at the point where I dread going to work, but once I’m there it’s really fun. I do a lot as a sushi prep working my way up to Sushi Chef; I basically make sure the Chefs are all stocked up and we never run out of rice….NEVER!! I wouldn’t say I love it, but I enjoy the job cause I am busy most of the time, and i love the music. I want to Roll! If you want a job there let me know ;)

Family- In my own opinion being 20 sucks. Im no longer a teen, but that’s not the reason it sucks…it just makes me realize that everyone else in my family is getting older. Spending Christmas with my family was bittersweet cause I kept thinking how different things will get when my grandparents pass…chilling with the kids makes me feel old because they don’t really play with me anymore cause im never around like how I use to be :’(.
My parents were never really there for me growing up, and so there were times when I felt like I hated them, times where I badmouthed them behind their backs, and times so many times I where I don’t think about my actions and just worry them. Recently I’ve realized…so what? I am being selfish for just focusing on the things that they should have done for me when I was growing up. Now I know what all they do for me, and I don’t really expect anything from them. They don’t owe me anything…I feel like a horrible son…it’s hard to tell them I love them cause they were so distant growing up….i really want to.

Future- I cant predict the future, but there is this unexplained certainty that I will be happy and successful in it. So I don’t worry about…heh


I’ve been thinking too much. I can tell that I’ve been thinking too much because It’s hard trying not to avoid thinking about things. I haven’t felt like this in quite some times now, but yeah…im sad.